my self esteem has plunged to an all-time low, and i don't know why. from probably a 5 to now, negative 43 :(
i think my eyes are getting even smaller now, i think i am so bloody fat, my hair suck, i have a big nose with a BIG mole on it and where's my eyebrows?!
plus, i've been having that kind of dream lately, and that is making me very edgy.
on friday night, i met a bunch of (maybe) fifteen year old bengs on the bus. they were very rowdy and noisy when they came on the bus, and one of them sat beside me. then one of them shouted, ' EH! xian zai ji dian ar? (what's the time now?) ' the beng sitting beside me, then asked me for the time, so i showed him my handphone. then another beng came and he said, ' eh, xiao jie, qing wen ni ji sui ar? (miss, how old are you?) ' he started to go on and on and chatted with me. the beng friend sitting beside me then gave up his seat to him. yada yada.. luckily the bunch of them alighted after a few stops, if not, i don't know i have to give my very unnatural fake smile for how long. i can only say they are very bo liao, trying to act sat or something. but please, someone younger lah. because i was not impressed at all, a little intimidated though. lol. there were 10 or more of them, okay! i am but a pretty helpless woman :) told him about it, but, he no reaction leh! wah lau! am i loved or what?
ignorance is a bliss, yes?
1 more day to valentine's. haven't buy anything yet :( but! i have something in mind. i doubt he got buy anything for me. lol! he's been with me for the past week, if not, he would be sleeping. impossible for him to buy anything, but never mind. i want nothing, just tell me he wants me for the rest of his life! and that i have eyes bigger than that of ayumi's, boobs bigger than that of tyra's, a nose as small as justin's and money for lasering off that outstanding mole of mine and a figur.. okay, a packed of lies :( but, if you happened to see this! i don't want anything but YOU! :D
i hope the ghost follows me forever, honestly.
i want things to be the way they were one year ago. when everything's so nice. occasional messages dropping by and stuff. but soh hoon, do you deserve them now?
i hope i get my allowance tomorrow. i need to do something about my current financial status.
i want to have a good night sleep tonight! i don't want to dream of that again. then, my inferiority level would probably go down a little.
i just realised i get angry easily when i'm hungry.
i'm very tired and this is a very disorganised entry.
HAPPY YUAN XIAO JIE, right?
i think my eyes are getting even smaller now, i think i am so bloody fat, my hair suck, i have a big nose with a BIG mole on it and where's my eyebrows?!
plus, i've been having that kind of dream lately, and that is making me very edgy.
on friday night, i met a bunch of (maybe) fifteen year old bengs on the bus. they were very rowdy and noisy when they came on the bus, and one of them sat beside me. then one of them shouted, ' EH! xian zai ji dian ar? (what's the time now?) ' the beng sitting beside me, then asked me for the time, so i showed him my handphone. then another beng came and he said, ' eh, xiao jie, qing wen ni ji sui ar? (miss, how old are you?) ' he started to go on and on and chatted with me. the beng friend sitting beside me then gave up his seat to him. yada yada.. luckily the bunch of them alighted after a few stops, if not, i don't know i have to give my very unnatural fake smile for how long. i can only say they are very bo liao, trying to act sat or something. but please, someone younger lah. because i was not impressed at all, a little intimidated though. lol. there were 10 or more of them, okay! i am but a pretty helpless woman :) told him about it, but, he no reaction leh! wah lau! am i loved or what?
ignorance is a bliss, yes?
1 more day to valentine's. haven't buy anything yet :( but! i have something in mind. i doubt he got buy anything for me. lol! he's been with me for the past week, if not, he would be sleeping. impossible for him to buy anything, but never mind. i want nothing, just tell me he wants me for the rest of his life! and that i have eyes bigger than that of ayumi's, boobs bigger than that of tyra's, a nose as small as justin's and money for lasering off that outstanding mole of mine and a figur.. okay, a packed of lies :( but, if you happened to see this! i don't want anything but YOU! :D
i hope the ghost follows me forever, honestly.
i want things to be the way they were one year ago. when everything's so nice. occasional messages dropping by and stuff. but soh hoon, do you deserve them now?
i hope i get my allowance tomorrow. i need to do something about my current financial status.
i want to have a good night sleep tonight! i don't want to dream of that again. then, my inferiority level would probably go down a little.
i just realised i get angry easily when i'm hungry.
i'm very tired and this is a very disorganised entry.
HAPPY YUAN XIAO JIE, right?
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