it really hit me hard when i took back my bstats paper. i failed. i've been fooling around too much this whole semester. i barely passed any papers. goddamnit. when everyone else got full marks for paper 2. i actually failed. so much for skipping lectures and missing tutorials. it was the first time i cried over a failed paper. i just realised that i have 4 projects to hand in and table topics on tuesday, when i saw the marks on the paper. final exams are coming. and i'm still failing bstats. fuck! now, i have to bear all the stupid consequences. i may start doing work now. but trust me, if i managed to get pass this semester, this whole vicious cycle will repeat itself again next semester. i know myself almost too well. I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT MODULES! not bstats, not miec! now i don't even know if i'm eligible for the bstats retest. got to add up test1 and 2 marks and see if i've failed overall. ooo! and for the bonus, the retest is on 14feb!
life's just so beautiful isn't it. everything is just going too well for me lah! my rashes should have kill me instantly. but no, the doc said it could have just been allergy to some food or insect bites. i told him i ate salmon sashimi 2 weeks back and it coincides with the rashes. so it might have been the raw salmon. maybe what i should do now is to gobble down lots of raw salmon for breakfast, lunch, high tea, dinner and supper.